David's blog

I seemed to have been wound up a bit more this year about this xmas lark and not in a good way as I don't like the thing and will be pleased when it all done and dusted for anther year though the next one will soon be here I guess.  The fat they come round quicker means I am getting older and would explain why the older you get the more ambivalent you become about crimbo, but there are a hardcore of older people I believe whole like xmas come hell or high water and maybe become more fanatical with age I don't know this of course but would hazard a guess that it might be case. The whole thing has now become drowned in commercialism and is a good excuse for religious folk to not like this time of year.  There is a lot of hype just for one day which comes round every year but I suppose its the pressure of capitalism who want you spend spend and consume but in doing this everything is finite while someone is consuming someone is going without I guess.  I doubt all these things

It is a very bleak and dark and miserable day made worse by my health situation.  It was not a successful night last night in the music session due to someone coming along and putting a black cloud over it due to what I regard as totally selfish behaviou with them being really anti social.  Some reckon I should be a bit more compassionate but not when all this person does is cause everyone to be uncomfortable and due to over politeness or not wanting to take responsibility the situation goes on and on and its tedious and tiresome. I heard today that the bus company I usually use is not going to be operating and that another one will take over \I really hope they are better than the one that has been doing the job. I still have no interest in this xmas thing, though I have had a nice invitation which I  not too sure about accepting to be honest

At last I have found out what happened to the tickets for next years gig. They were posted out to the wrong address which of course I should have realised earlier was going to happen as I did not give an address as I did not want them to be sent out in the first place. I will have to go back and pick them up again I guess its no hard ship as I have plenty of time and its no hardship going to Llandudno. Well the rotten xmas period is now in full swing tesco had those wretched xmas songs playing I have heard them all my life as theyh came out when I was young.  I would have thought they would have had some new songs by now its getting tedious and just making xmas worse than ever

I decided to go to Llandudno today to pick up the tickets that I booked to see the Manic street preachers next May I had to go and pick them up aas it would have cost me 6 quid to have them posted to me. I wanted to go on the train but Arriva trains Wales did not have enough stock to put on the line today I am not sure how long this is going to go on for but I assume that this has something do to with the fact that they are not running the service from next year onwards so they are slowly withdrawing from from the service and we can expect the quality of the the arrangement to detiorate from here on in until the new people who will be running the line to take over.  No train so I had to go on a wretched distressed motors bus which is not the most comfortable way to go to Llandudno.  I got there about ll am or so and went to theatre to pick up the tickets only to find out they had been posted out.  I told them I had not seen the tickets the woman behind the counter told me if I had no

Its Thursday again and I went to the sauna and for a swim but this morning one of the attendants came the sauna apparently thinking or someone thought they had seen someone going in naked I think the problem was that there was a guy in there with only swimming trunks well I say only what are you suppose to wear in a swimming but trunks I think the attendants don't have enough to do probably they have to much time on their hands probably. Was hoping the sauna would help with my shoulder which is painful and has been for while now it did not do much good itstill painful. I guess I will have to go to the doctor soon again. This afternoon I have been trying to find contacts that can help a friend of mine who is blind with getting hold of a new digital audio workstation that is accessible that he can use his speech software with

This is how my impatience cost me forty quid today. Nearly a week ago I heard the washing machine make a noise I thought was unusual it seemed to be stuck or something.  This noise got on my nerves a bit as I thought the machne was broke so I gave it a sharp nudge and this resulted in the switches breaking so |I couldn't get the thing to do anything now.  I called the washing machine he said it would be today that he would be able to come out and not whe it was broke. I rang another chap to come and fix it he said he woue be hare on Monday but in my wisdom I decided to go out and be back hopefully before he came, well I wasn't he had been and gone I was a bit annoyed with myself for missing the appointment. jAnyway the one who was booked for today turned up just befroe lunch time and told me that washng machines sometime take a long time to spin as they are tryinng to get the load balanced and that it what I experienced  and I needn't have broken the switches. I guess I s

The margin on this blog seems to have moved and I am not sure how to move it back. Its Sunday again and they just come around a lot sooner these days it will be xmas soon which is not my favourate time of year I think its anti social, a lot people are left on their own if they don't have family its impractical, there is no public transport in rural places to speak of.  It also costs money which people will have to pay for months after the thing. The whole thing is basically very boring and hopefully it will come and go quickly which I guess it will as time does seem to pass by quickly these days which is a sign of getting old I guess.  More on the isolating effect of xmas. https://community.scope.org.uk/discussion/37541/disability-and-social-isolation?utm_content=buffer18b31&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter&utm_campaign=buffer#latest It does not seem so cold today I guess I could have done my washting too except the thing broke down a couple of days ago and I am

Had bit of strange time at the library today.  I went there to do some stuff on the compouter and pass the time before the bus came along.  I had been there about 20 minutes when a load of middle aged women came in a few of them said hello as I was aquainted with them.  One of them seemed to be in charge they sat down and started to discuss the issue they were going to discuss that women and pensions.  I was not sure if I had missed something and the room was not free and I wasn't suppose to be there I just carried on anyway expecting them to get room I guess but the meeting went on and I was made aware of issues that they were discussing. I felt I was intruding really even though it is a public library.  Eventually I got fed up of trying to get the compouter to do what I wanted and got up and left and wished them luck with their campaign.  I am sure they would have preferred a private place I am not sure whey thought it was a good idea to have their meeting there in the library. 

On this dark and murky day the noisy manhole cover has been fixed I am sure they will need to come out again in a year or so as it does not seem to last long/ The electric light in the street has not been fixed so its still nice and dark outside I guess its a change from the usual I doubt it will stay that way for long. I had a go today on the looper pedal and found out it can help with trying to write a song its possible to get a guitar progession going and to come up with some words and also to come up wth another part to the song.  I should have recorded it really as I have now forgotten the song I came up with I guess there will be others. Damn I have just come across an email about the cleaner I was chucking out, and eventually put in the rubbish I have only just come across this email not sure how I missed it

I went to the doctor yesterday regarding the pain I have in my stomach he gave me some painkillers which seem on taking them this morning to do nothing really only make me a bit dizzy.  It seems there is going to be no relief from this pain in the foreseeable future which is a bit depressing. This weekend is last bank holiday weekend I have no idea where the supposed summer has gone it has been very poor except for the few days in June which makes them want to move the school holidays a bit earlier in the year which I guess is no big deal really as most kids these days seem to be stuck in the house on their computers. I am hoping to go for a walk tomorrow if I am not in pain and the weather which has been forecast to be fine, is fine.  I am then down to play some music in the evenng which I am not looking forward to its a bit of a drag really.

Well I was hoping I would have been watching Wales play in the playoff today but its Ireland, well I say hoping, I know really that Wales don't do things like get to world cups I have experienced the dissappointment many times.  I think the reason mainly is that Wales I guess does not see itself as a country wholly so when it comes to 'fighting for your country' the fight isent there and teams with lesser ability knock us out due to they having more fight in them as happened with the bogytrotter I mean the Irish but they did play like bogtrotters really and hopefuly will not get the chance to stink out the the world cup.  Though the world cup is strange the people who run the thing have not bothered to comment on the injustice suffered by Northern Ireland they just have to suck it up which is not really fair as that desicion had nothing to do with football but all do with with a stupid mistake which would not have been so bad in the qualifying games but why did it happen in

It was a sad start to the day today I went to friend's funeral she was the same age as me and actually it would have been her birthday tomorrow from what I could here in the service.  I have been to many funerals in my lifetime but this was the first funeral I had been in which was not in a crem or a chapel.  The service was held in the local village hall and was well attended I guess that would be due to her being quite young in relation to the age most die.  I guess it was in the hall as they were not religious I guess. Anna had died a week ago from the rot that is cancer it seems to be very common round here at the moment.  The fact that the service was not a religious one it seemed to be runnng the same way as a religious except there was no religious singing involved on no mention of God etc. The village hall does not get used a lot its a bit of while elephant maybe it can be used for such things as funerals I guess so it just doesn't stand there taking up space. RIP

I have been getting the local community newspaper on tape recently and its great a I have said I can convert it to digital with this gadget.  This morning I told the lady who gives me the tape that I could do this not thinkng that implies I keep a copy of the CD and can do what I want with it really.  I get tape for nothing really which is nice.  Also this morning I offered to make a copy of the tape on a CD for others.  You would think by now that the service would be on CD most folk have not got tape player. I think this recording of the newspaper could be enhanced like there could be interviews put on it and this would maybe broaden the audience who look at the paper.  Also old interviews could be added to the 'tape' and this would introduce people to some stuff that they might be interested in and not able to access it such as old interviews with old characters who are not longer with us.  Old recording which are still around on whatever medium could be changed into digit

Has been a dark and dismal day weather wise today.  It has been poor weather for months now really wretched. The only advantage of this weather is that I have photophobia and this darkness and dreariness stops me from suffering with it I don't have to squint my eyes when I am out which makes a nice change it gives me rest for a while well until \I go into a shop or something.  I am glad I can find a positive in such dreariness

I have had an itchy eye for a few days now and its really annoying I have been rubbing the thing and it has become sore.  I was given some advice a while ago about it as I have had it before and told to bathe the eye as often as possible so that's what I am doing now in the hope it will clear up soon. I have only started to develop this problem recently and seeing as I can only really see through the itchy eye its a really concern when something goes wrong with it. I was given some stuff a few months ago to deal with the original itchy eye I have some left even though its out of date not sure if  should be using it as its out of date oh well/

I went for a swim this morning they have changed the time of the slot I usually go to on a Thursday from 9.30 to 10 am it is better for me really but its a drag in the fact they move the slot around so much I guess I shouldn't complain as I don't pay for the swim.  I then went to the opticians to pick up a couple of things.  It is a wet day again today I can't remember a dry week it has been a while since we had one.

It has finally stopped raining, it has been pissing it down on and off for 3 days now and its very depressing.  We did not have a summer this year it was not cold but it just rained most of it which is pretty sad really.  The number 6 festival is here this week and it looks like it might be a washout again.

It is sometimes very hard to move on from having been hurt by someone seems.  You know its the right thing to do and you can tell yourself that you are not going to let them affect how you make decisions but sometimes its not that easy the fact that you have been hurt is naturally going to make you more guarded.  I guess what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. It is a bad thing to let one bad experience affect the whole of your life I think there could have been loard of reasons why someone hurts you and it might not have anything to do with you.  The fact you have been hurt is just a warning I guess that you might have gone about things the wrong way I suppose.

I took the plunge and ordered another laptop from Amazon, I hope I have got the right one this time.  It is not easy picking the right laptop especially for making music there are so many different specs to be aware of.  I will have to wait until the end of next week to find out if I have picked the right one. I was in an embarrasing situation today someone came to be and said hell and used my name while saying hello but I did not know who it was I just cringed.  I probably should have known he was but I have forgotten, not very nice. The weather is very poor today being that its summer its quite chilly its been a poor summer maybe I need to go abroad for some sun.

Its not easy returning a parcel to Amazon it seems.  I bought this computer the other week and its not what I want really I need a more powerful one.  I had two options in regards to this I could send the one I had back or I could soup it up a computer shop. Anyuway I opted for the sending back option and went through the website and gave them a reason why I wanted to send it back.  They said it would be collected on the next buisness day. I said I wanted a return there was an option to get a replacement and I specifically well to the best of my ability tried to make it clear that I did not want a replacement I did find it hard to make this clear on the website. Anyuway I needed to get a label to put on the package and needed to print this off as I don't have a printer as they are a rip off.  I got the label printed in the local library and attached it to the parcel.  I was informed in the email I would have someone picking it up the next day, well no one turned up so I rang Amaz

The welsh language seems to be under attack again. I am not sure why people see it fit to have a go at my way of life I don't bother them.  The language its here its the way we live so just leave it alone/   Welsh has been around a long time and has survived many attmepts to get rid of it. Peronally I feel myWelsh is weak I am fluent but I think my volcabulary is limited I am sure there are alot Welsh learners who have a bette grasp of the volcabulary than me I guess I am good at doing the same thing.  This blog is evidence of my weakness in Welsh I should be writing Welsh really and reading and I don't do that. I think my volcabulary in English is wider than my volcabulary in Welsh. I guess we all need to make an effort to learn Welsh better and use it more complacency will be the death of the language.  The language should not be entrusted to politicians hands either they do not have a good record with the Welsh language.  The twat Carwyn Jones went to Patagonia and undremi

I bought a new laptop yesterday with the idea that it was going to be more powerful than the one I have and that I could record more efficently.  It has twice the RAM and number or cores on the processor, actually it is worse than the one I have already which is very beguiling, after studying this subject now for a few years I guess I haven't learnt anything it seems.  Either that or the subject of recording digitally is very puzzling in the extremme I think its the first one.  I have never known anythng quite so difficult to understand besides statistics I guess. Anyway today I have uninstalled the whole thing and am trying to download it again though this is not a good time of day to do that.  The way it is worse than the old computer is that the processor is spiking and cracking like anything even when there is nothin being played on the the stupid DAW it ws not that bad on the old one.  I am now regretting buying the laptop and can't think of no good reason to send it ba

It seems now that I am not even being informed when work is going to begin at this property which I rent.  I came on Friday and saw that some turf had been dug up I thought there must have been some dog or somethng been digging it up.  I forgot all about it anyway until I got up the next day and these machines were being driven into the garden.  This brought back all the bad memories of when that twat came in here years ago.   I approached these people who were with the machines and they told me that they were building a path here. I told them I knew nothing about it and that I did not want one really.  They said that was fine but I eventually changed my mind and now they are in the middle of builiding it. I wish they had started at the beginning of the weeks so the job wasn't dragged out so much.  I left them to it as I don't own the place. I guess the path will be handy in winter when ground is sodden and also there will be less grass to take care of. It seems from the ev

 I decided to go and do something about the charged that the banks have on an arranged overdraft today.  Sometimes I get caught out by this charge due to too much money going out before it goes in and its very frustrating.  The bank that I use charges me 6 pounds a month if I get overdrawn, that bank is natwest and that charge kicks in even though I am only overdrawn for a few hours at the most.  I think this is a bit money grabbing and that I should have a few hours to pay the money back.  Anyway I have heard that Nationwide charges 50p a day paying this is better than paying 6 quid anyway I even went to Natwest to ask if they would have the same terms as Nationwide no chance I guess I knew that Natwest were quite happy to lose a customer I guess they are in a privelaged position I suppose.  I am off to get my account changed next week anyway

I have been thinking back today about the appointment I had in the pain clinic the other day and how the trauma suffered in childhood due to abuse from parents can lead to problems in later life well I guess the problems exist through life and in my case the conclusion that it can contribute to chronic pain or exaccerbate chronic pain.  It is sometimes quite difficult to accept that physical pain can have psychological component aswell but I guess it makes sense as the mental cannot be cut away from the physical the body is all one really as it life.  We divide life in parts that seemed cut off we childhood is put away as we are adults but the childhood is importatnt as to know where the journey started is important to work out the direction you are going in.  It is important to try and understand the traumas of choldhood and to express those traumas and unerstanding to hopefully stop it happening to someone else

 I have been busy the last couple of days now which is a change for me recently.  I have been doing some voluntary work for the local community pub some renevation work.   It all started on Saturday night when someone who wrorks mentioned theey were going to get rid of the carpet that was there.  I have hated this carpet for a long time, when he said he was going to get rid of it I said I would help him, I had been drinking of course.  I was surprised at myself volentreering really maybe I wanted to make sure the thing went. Anyway the carpet has gone and the wood underneath is exposed now iy has been sanded in parts the hardest part of the job is picking up the nails and the tacks from teh wood there are hundreds of them and its veruy labout intensive work. I guess its quite a nice thing to help the community and the work I do is something which I am managing to do really which of course is not always the case these days. The work has made me use muscles what I have not used f

I have had an itchy eye for a couple of weeks now it is really annying.  I have been to the optician about it but it seems not have done much good as its still there.  All he could come up with was that I might have a dry eye or something but I think its more than that but I suppose I would. The optician gave some spray to moisten the eye which helps a bit i guess.  I have another opticians appointment in a week's time maybe she will be able to sort it out hopefully like someone said there is somethng all the time.  I guess its this growing old crap again which to be honest is not fun at all.  Someone said it was better than the alternative I beg to differ somethimes I guess.  For the last 3 years nearly it has been the pain in my stomach now that has improved though still have the discomfort its now the eye and the ingrowing toe nail. 

So someone else would like the crowd that play music on a wednesday evening to play for them.  I guess it ws a novelty at the beginning now I am beginning to lose the will the live playing the same old rubbish over and over.  I can get a glimpse of how bands feel when they are asked to play the same old shit over and over.  The problem is the folk in the group don't have time to practise and therefore there is no opportunity to change things.  I will have to think of ways of getting out of this shit while I am still sane.

I have had an itch in my good eye for days I gathered it was probably an eyelash that was growing into the I have tried various remedies but nothng works its still itchying.  According to my sister I have two of them which probably explains why the itch is so persistant I guess.  One remedy I tried was to put my head in water but that didn't work. I guess I will have to go and see someone about it soon as its really annoying. I am quite imprssed with this little speaker I got off amazon I would never think that such a small speaker would pump out such a big sound. it wasn't cheap but it wasn't too expensive either I just need to find a way ot get it linked to the tv now.

This morning I went to the doctor's surgery to see the nurse as I have a painful big toe I think it is something to do the toe nail which I cut the other week and has been sore since. It was taking a while for my appointment to come round and then my name appeared on the screen to see the nurse so up I got and bizzarely someone else got up too, he looked at me and I looked at him. I asked him if he had the same name he said he did.   The bloke, who's name was obviously David went off to the nurse as he had beren there longer than me.  I just wonder what the chances are of someone with the same name seeing the same person at the same time around the same time are.  it was not the same time obviously it was just that the nurse was running late.  Initially I thought this person was taking the piss, I am sure he thought the same about me. Anyway I needn't have bothered to go and see the nurse as she was not that helpful really she told me I would have to wait a few weeks fo

The path that I was not expecting has finally been fnished, they completed it this morning.  I am still a bit puzzled as to why I was not told aboutt that they were going to build a path here.  I was told that I should have been informed by the builders but I think that is wrong I should have been informed by the housing asscotian as it was their idea in the first place to have put there the builders did not just decide on the spot to put one here maybe this time it was a stupid communication breakdown so I suppose I should let it go. To be honest the path has spoilt the garden really if I had the chance I would have rather had a narrower one really this one juts fillst he garden.  There was no need for one really there is no point to having one here but its here now so I have to make the best of it.  In fairness to the builders they have left the place tidy which is good. I now have my garden back its not as green as it was as there is a concrete fixture in it now I guess that;s how

Well its been all go here this week in relaton to the work that I have been having done on the house, the fascia has been done they have been here all week and have decent weather to do it.  Also the path has which I did not know I was getting is nearly finished the workers might be a bit peaved when they come back tomorrow as I have stepped on the path and messed it up a bit I doubt it will be a big deal though. I thought the fascia people had finished but they seemed to have left a load of stuff here so I assime they will be back tomorrow. I rang ot complain about the fact that I had not been told about the the fact I was getting a new path. It seems to have been a problme in relation that the contractors hwould have told not the landlord. I am assuming if they let people know they might refuse the works being done.  If I am right then this is not a good way to operate and their business will not last long.  Anyway I should have my garden back tomorrow though it will have path now

There are many things that are not nice about ageing in fact I doubt there is anything postive about ageing really only I guess the fact you are still alive.  One of the main things which I dislike is how your skin gets thinner and the fact that you can feel you bones a lot easier under the skin the padding which has been there all your life is or seems to be rapidly decreasing.  This loss of padding for a want of a better word also make your skin loser.  I guess no one can live for ever but its no fun getting older really its not for the faint hearted as someone says. I don;t think there is anything much anyone can do to change the damage to the skin except spend a lot of money on some creams which might or might not work.  I don't have enough to buy a load to cover my body and I don't really fancey sitting there for ages putting the gunk on so I guess I will have to put up with the sag I guess and the horrible boney feel of my skin its horrible but that's life I guess a

Well had my day well and truely fucked up by some shitty bus driver today.  I had planned to go for walk with a crowd of people about 6 miles from here but it involved changing buses ones.  The bus from the village was due to get to the place where I had to change about 5 to 10 minutes before I was due to catch the connection.   I caught the bus from the village at 10.30ish it was ok it then got to the next stop and the diver decided to get off the bus to have a chat with the another bus driver basically wasting time.  This diver ws a woman and we know how they like to chat I know that is a sexist remark but for heaven sake she must know its tight to get the connection.  anyway the silly cow go to the place wher the connection ws about a minute late, the other bus haed gone. I guess the other bus coule have hung back to check if there was anyone who wanted the bus but I guess that is too much to ask.  The bus service round here is absolute shite. So the day has been ruined really I

I have bad eyesight or whatever the term is.  I have been going to play cards with some people and I was struggling to see the normal caards so decided to bring my own cards which were a bit bigger than the normal ones.  Now most people understand which is quite refreshing really but there is alwys one twat I guess who is too stupid to understand.  Now it's not easy being different but I guess I am more interested in playing the cards than I am about fitting in. Most of my life has been spent 'denying' my eyesite issue but now I have reached a point where I don't care I guess I have grown too old to worry about what folk think or maybe I just don't care anymore which I gues it quite sad

I had rather a lot to drink last night too much really,  I guess this was due to the time I went out.  I went to a local barn dance thingy it was quite a good night had a chat with a few might have said some silly thngs as you do well as I do when I have had too much to drink it was a nice change though from the usual routine of just going to the local pub.  The weather was quite nice as it is today it is really hot right now a real flaming june of a day. When it is this hot one feels that they should make the most of it and go out and enjoy it and I feel guilty if I don't which is silly I guess just because the weather improves it does not mean I have to change my life completely and start enjoying things. This is a pic of the old shed that was in my garden and which was taken down a few years ago and replaced with metal container.  I had forgotten about this shed until I came across a photo of it

I had an unpleasent experience at a bank locally the other day and today, the manager rang up about it as I had filled in a feedback form.  I related to the episode to the manager and she said she would give me the money back that I want to enquiere about which was nice and forgot to thank her.  She assured me it would not happen again and I am sure it won't it was just one those things I guess that does not happen very often but was not a pleasent experince. I am not a fan of poor customer service its not hard to be polite well especially when you are being paid for it.  If you have a probem, with the job go and do something else would be my advice I guess.  It is not often a company rings me up to enquire about my opinion on customer service

Waiting here in anticipation for the Wales v Serbia game or should that be the other way round as it is the Serbs who are at home more's the pity.  Wales need to win this one to have any chance of going through automatically to the finals in Russia.  I am hopeful they can win but somehow I think it is a bit too much to ask especially when the main player is not there. It is very windy here today and not too warm either I guess the summer is going by again without much warm weather.  I will probably have to go away if I want to get some warm weather but I doubt that will happen as i have not been for a long lont time.

It has been a drab day weather wise no sign of summer.  I decided to contact some old friends today using the whatsapp thing.  I had noticed that one of my friends had decided to use it, I have not seen her for about 4 years.  She replied quite promptly and I got the answer to a question I had had for a while that of where she was living now and its Dorset but she thinks she might move again.  I am beginning to think she is one of those people who once they start to move struggle to stop and find somewhere to settle down, they seem compelled to move all the time. I messaged a couple of other people too and they also repllied one of them who I have known for over 30 years lives in the south of England the other one I have only known a few years and lives in London.  This whats app is handy in that its basically free to chat to people on if you have wifi.  I use it on the web mainly as the keyboard on phones is a bit small It was another day and another bus journey I am getting a bit

Well the tooth or lack of tooth is not hurting as much today anyway. It is other things which are troubling me today, like the poor weather which we are having right now but there is not a lot I can do about that I guess. The election is nearly upon us and I am torn really who I want to win as this year the ones in power have done me a big favour but I am not a fan of that party and would not like to have them in again really but the others might undo the favour this one did me a while ago.  They did not deliberatly do me a favour well it wasn't them who did the favour really. Well now i am able to edit this as I have sorted out some problem I had,  the cojmputer seemed to be continuously printing the letter d I did not know for ages what the problem was then I discovered it was the fact that something was pressing on the laptop keyboard

I had a tooth taken out on Friday it was the first one for a long time.  It was me who decided to have it taken out, and that was really a first.  The dentist would not advise me to take it out he said it was my choice well I thought I had no choice as it was the only way I was going to get rid of this pain which arose now and then.  I am not sure why he would not advise me to take it out or not it might be something to do with the fact that it was against what he thought his job was and that there were other options which might work, but then again might not.  I was not happy about having my tooth taken out or having to pay for the privelage as it was them who had caused the pain really with the filling they gave me.  The destist should have acted a long time ago before the pain had worn me down. Anyway the tooth is out now so its too late to do anything about it I was not too comfortable with havintg and it does not help that the socket is still sore.  I am sure it will heal in tim

Its another bank holiday weekend, I am not keen on these holidays though they are good for folk to get time off I guess.  I have just discovered that my mic I ordered off ebay has arrived.  I was walking back to the living room when I looked through the window of the door and I could see there might be something attached to the door handle I opened the door and there was the mic shoved into the door handle. I don't think it came today as its too early for the post these days so it must have been there since yesterday. I guess no one has been past my front door since yesterday then as I am sure they would have told me. I have tested the mic out and it seems to be working fine it has not got damaged getting here.  These SM58 Shure mics are quite tough I think. Now the singer with gang I practise with has a mic to use.   These mics are the ones that most singers use to sing live with. Its a shame but the weather is not as great today as it was yesterday it has rained in the night

Well they are still going on about the incident the other day ther is not a lot ele on the telly at the moement. Well I have been having issues with the computer again.  It seems it is something to do with an usb cable everything else stops working when I plug it in.  I will give the computer a rest and maybe it will kick into action again soon enough.  

Hard to understand why someone would want to kill his own people.  This person who murdered the folk in Manchester was from Manchester.  It just makes the whole act even more senseless really.  What happend was mankind at its most evil, hard to understand how someone so young could be so evil but I guess evil is not an age thing as yonger people than this person have murdered in the past. I think that a few people I know were in that arena a couple of weeks ago watching some Bob Dylan concert so I guess this person chose last night as they know it would be full of young people. I have had some discomfort most of the day but not the really bad pains of a few weeks ago.  I am hopefuly on the right track

I have been having trouble with my broadband today, its been a bit unsteady for a while well since I have had this fast one really the other one I had worked better to be honest. I rang BT about the problem and they have changed the settings now, I get the impression the speed will be slower now but steadier.  To be honest I could never noiice the difference between the two types of broadband in relation to speed.  Well I just hope the thing is steady now and does not keep on dropping out its a real ordeal trying to sort out the settings and thing by taking instruction over the phone.   I was lucky this time the person who was helping was very patient.  She really took her time to explain things and did not mind repeating them, I nearly asked her for her phone number

I was watching a tv programme this morning and there was an issue on it regarding giving ECT to children.  This was happening in the United States. this technique was used for a long time I am not sure if it still is used, on people with depression.  I know it has the effect of damaging the memory. I was in this mental health unit a few years ago and there was a room with the letters ECT on it.  It has to be barbaric to give someone electric shock.  In America they give it poor kids who are born autistic.These poor children do not a have voice, I am sure there are other methods more than one way to skin a cat so to speak.  This treatement is being dished out and there is not research into what damage it can cause to people who are autistic, it may help shor term but what is the longterm consequence of such action.  The old doctors handing out these shocks will not be around to take the consequences.

Today I decided to take the train to Llandudno.  The train is a lot more comfortable than the bus its possible to read or go to the loo on the train and if you want you can have a nap as the seats are a bit more comfortable. It was quite busy in Llandudno which it is most of the time I guess full o tourists. I mouched around for a couple of hours then came back on the bus  I still haven't received the letter to and see the doctor though I have not been in pain today well not there anyway only my tooth which is coming out soon

Well the change over to the new fridge went smoothly today.  The lady who wanted the old one for the guide hut came to get it and the new one was delivered an hour or so later and is now in place.  It is a bit narrower than the one I had before but it will do fine and it has a couple of years guarantee. I am now just waiting for the payment to me taken from my account as well as the utility payment, there will be a big hole in the account at the end of the week but the fridge needed changing as there was a problem with the door

I decided to hop ont the bus to Caernarfon today, the place where you get a warning when you buy chips to beware of the seagulls, as they will try to prize them off you and if they can't  they will brazenly hang around until you throw them one just to get rid of them, they are really pest, just like rats I guess but a bit more brave Seagulls can obviously be very dangerous when it comes to children as the could take an eye out, I wear glasses so I guess I doubt that will happen to me.  There is not a lot in Caernarfon these days a few supermarkets and some other shops but its a change from round here I guess and the weather might be better than it is here. I decided to come and write ssoemthing here as I was watching the tedious local news banging about some long term school caretaker in south wales retireing or something like that.  

Well weather wise its not very nice today.  I am trying out this new wireless keyboard today, I bought it cheap on ebay and boy it is cheap too.  I am having diffictulty reaching the delete key on it it is so small.   I bought it to help with recording as its wireless, this will allow me to press record on the lap top from a remote distance like the next room save me going backwards and forwards. As for the gig on saturday night it was interesting.  A couple of people I know where there and gave me some interesting feedback in regards to my guitar playing and what role I should play in the group.  From the feedback I gather there is not much point me playing the same thing as the other guitar person in the band so I need to play somethijg different as all it does is drown out the other musicians and there is no definition there in the end it can sound samey I guess.  If I am going to just play the same thing as the other guitar player there is not much p0oint in having me there reall

Well only two days to go until we play at the pub in Pont y Pant, I am not all that comfortable with playing in front of people even though I have been playing the guitar down the local pub on a Wednesday evening for a while now.  The thing about that is, that there aren't that many people there so its no biggy ane also they don't pay us.  Down the pub is just a casual thing this is a paid gig thing and therefore a bit more serious.  I guess I will have to see how I feel about the whole thing on Saturday and if I am up to it. I feel that last night's rehersal was quite good and it goes that smoothly I feel saturday will be ok really.  I guess it all depends on how this pain I have is on the day.

About 8 months ago I went to the dentist and he decided on inspection that I neeed a filling, I guess he was the expert so away we went, I hate dentists at the best of times, I don't like that instrusive proding around in my mouth but I guess its a necessary evil, if I am gong to have fairly healthy teeth.  I am, not keen on having false teeth either I am too vain I think for that though I do have friends who have them.   Anyway I got the filling and it seemed a really big one a big lump of somethng in my mouth well ont he bottom right hand side anyway. I paid the bill went home anyway.  I forgot about this filling but a few weeks late it began to hurt and it went on hurting now and then for couple o months. I decided to go back to the dentist and ask if he could do somethng.  Now this dentist talks really fast and I could not understand him really I went home again without having done nothng the pain did not go away. I saw this dentist again after 6 months told him about the pai

I went back to the computer course today, late as usual.  It was a recap of what we had done before today, so it was a bit boring I guess as I have done this many times.  I maybe on the wrong course I guess as it seems geared for beginners, I am not going to learn a lot but I suppose it gets me out of the house but I probably need to be doing something else I guess. The wind is very cold today does not feel like spring at all I am sure it will chanbge quite soon.  I haven't seen the painter yet he is suppose to be coming back and finishing the wall he didn't do the last time he was here. I am still struggling to understand the form of the music I am trying to make which I suppose until I do I am not going to progress.

I have started giving things to recycling site, as I have a bit of stuff I don't need.  I decided to give away a mixer and audio mixer which I was having difficulty using as I was struggling with understanding how it worked, also the plug had broken one of the pins had snapped off.  I advertised it on the site called freegle. Eventually I got a response from a chap who lived locally and he came to get it a few days later.  He said he would fix it he took a couple of other things I was giving away too. I was glad to get rid of them I am not a fan of clutter, I have some stuff in the shed which I need to get rid of I have failed to get rid of it on the recycling site so its going to end up in the bin I guess. I think my bvother is coming round to pick it up this week some time, like I say I have tried to give it away but no luck. Anyway, going back to the chap who picked up the mixer. I got a message through facebook the other day from a lady who said the chap had passed away and

Well my visit to the swimming pool went smoothly today, no being locked out of the pool and having to get dressed again like last week and nearly falling out with the receptionist.  It was also empty which was nice so no obsturctions swimming all over the place. The smell of paint is still here and there are a few failings in the job but in general its ok.  I have patched up a bit of it, I guess it gives me a job to do.   There was a chap here earlier who said he was here about the cladding job on the house, which to my stupidity I said I knew nothing about and he checked it out and it was a mistake I wish I had shut my mouth and then I would have got some new insulation, I guess that's how it goes. I will get new fittings and things around the house outside.  I think they were only done a year or two ago oh well its up to them it does seem a waste of money which is what these public sector set ups are good at doing I guess wasting money, as its not there's I suppose, which

Well I have got that superfast so called broadband today as it will be the same price as the old so called slow one due to a deal and to the fact that the other one is going up, well that's what I was told and that's what I believed which I am more inclined to do these days and it has nothing to do with me being more trusting I am sorry to say.   Well it is faster like they say it would be I guess you need a new comp to get the real benefit of the thing. I have also had the house painted too just to brighten the place up a bit as it can be a bit gloomy in here especailly with the fact that the place gets alot mould due to it being damp and colds here a lot the time, I don't know how long the place will stay this bright but I guess all I can do is hope and try to keep it clean kind of thing. I just wish I could move my health situation forward as easely as I have been able to do the above things. Well I am going to have a rant now about bad people skills there are a

The local Co-op sells things off cheap most days due to use by dates etc.  I saw this pasta sauce there today and it was cheaper than its usual price, I did not check the date I assumed it was in date as it was on the shelf, I was wrong, it was out of date.  They said they could not sell it to me as it was a day out of date.  So I am presuming that that it will get chucked out now as its not possible to sell it.  Maybe they could give it ot the local foodbank or something, I still would have eaten it even it was out of date it was only a day out of date.  There must be so much food wasted due to regulations or rules or whatever they called like this.

Well I am very happy with the guitar I bought the other day, which came through the post, It is a bit risky buying a guitar from the Internet as, basically I haven't tried it out, I am buying blind kind of thing, I did see it on youtube and I have been looking for a dreadnought for a long time, and it seemed to be recommended by the guy who was playing it, but he wasn't a salesman.  Anyway luckily is has worked out ok. It is a lot easier to play than the last one I bought, which was also done through the net, I live in place where guitar shops are very few and far between.  I was hoping if I threw a few more quid at the problem it would be better and it has proved to bed that way.  The action is great, this one also seemed to have a fast attack, it hit the tone very quickly this was pointed out to me by a friend I had never thought of looking for a guitar in relation to the attack, so I have recently learn ed something new, I think it must be something to do with wood, this is

Seem to have a bad belching problem, apparently it can be caused by anxiety.  The anxiety might have been caused by the dog's dinner of a gig last night. It took place with a dreaded PA system again, they are not easy things to use I find, the sound is all over the place.  Anyway we were not being paid for the thing so it wasn't that a big a deal.  We all seemed to be struggling, a lot might be down to a lack of rehearsing I guess. and inexperience with using a PA.  My mistake was a bit basic though I played the wrong chords in one song, I think the noise of the PA got to me and it was just a din, I was a bit confused why my guitar was sounding wrong then I worked out half way through the song that I was playing wrong chords as someone said, it was a bit avant garde.  It did say on the instructions it was in D not G but I guess I am used to playing it in G I am not a fan of the song really I think it fails to work, but what do I know I guess, maybe I am getting ahead of myself.

Well I was dissappointed with the fact that America have chosen this disgusting man to lead their country, it is going to be and anxious time for all now as no one knows what this idiot will get up with all that power he has.  They say you get the politicians you deserve, well I guess the US has been up to no good at all to get this clown.

I came across another tv programme filmed in my old college the RNC today.  It was filmed by Ian Hamilton a guy who was there the first time I went to the college in the early 1980s.  The programme was looking at weather disabled people are better off in special ed than in mainstream education.  In relation to special education I spent 4 years at the RNC which meant me leaving home and going 130 miles down the road, it was tough the first few weeks, but with help of friends and my parents I got over it in the end, The main thing about the RNC for me, is the fact that life before or after my time in Hereford has never been quite as good, I am not sure why this is, is it because I could forget my disability there or the fact that I found love or the fact I was looked after there food etc or the fact that I did not have to look too far for friends there I had attention, there I was part of the hierarchy there which as based on level of eyesight myu eyesight was not as bad as most othere