David's blog

I am must be getting old I find this time of year so disorientating and hard to adapt to really even though it comes every year I hate xmas its horrible and would much rather just carry on but its been worse this year due to the poxy restrictions.  There does not seem to be an end to all this shit at the moment the vaccine is on the horizon but its still being fucked about with I wish they would get on with it. The snow is a nice change from all the wet weather we have had recently.  It is still quiet here in relation to the traffic though a car came by this morning and the old familliar vibration was present when it did the house still vibrated a bit.  

So far its an awful day really its damp amd miserable the place is like a morg though if its busy I also moan I guess I am not happy with this lockdown bollox imposed on us it seems way over the top but there is nothing I can do I guess its a wreteched situation imposed by shit politicians. I am now hanging out to get this vaccine to get us away from these fuckwit politicians its so nasty the way things are being handled I do not know how they get away with it really  My life is being wasted in this situation which is bollox really.  I was nice to be able to go for a walk with my brother the other day though. I sent him an article about how gold has been found near where he lives he might as well go and have a look for some himself if he has the time.  

  The stupid labour leader in Wales has just smashed people in Wales's xmas to bits it is really frustrating having this fuckwit mess about with your life by closing things down its hard enough with this virus as it is nevermind getting some stupid cunt to compound things but taking actions that don't make sense I have never experienced so much political intrusion in my life I am sure many feel the same too. That vaccine seems a long way off tonight and I doubt I will ever trust any politician again I suppose or maybe I should just forget about politics it has become a farce. I was at least able to get out today and I have not been in as much pain as usual the pain I think has been making things harder obviously.  I will struggle again to sleep tonight as I had a kip this afternoon I was really tired as I have not slept well for a couple of days. You would think we would get use to this fucking about my politicians but you don't its appalling the way things have been handle

A really horrible day today with the rain and wind being really bad but according to the wretched facebook timeline the place was deep in snow 10 years ago I am not sure what the means. It seems facebook has become a bit heavy handed recently regarding blocking people which in the end will become counter productive as people will stop using it as a way to adverstise I say block, it stops you posting but thinks poeple are stupid and will keep on reading it and watch the adverts which some might but many won't I guess its the thin end of the wedge and in the end it will stop but it will have made the money so who cares. I never did get to the bottom of how facebook knew I had met Chris a friend in the september 1998 I never told it but its a bit creepy that it did and Chris said she did not post it this is one of the strangest things I have ever seen or Chris must have put something down which is the only explanation, if so facebook does not do discretion obviously. I guess I can alw

  I started off disliking the Labour party in Wales due to it being in the governement for far too long and I started to actively slag it off in the hope I guess of it not being voted in May but now its become personal I suppose as its making my life miserable due to its stupid rules on alcohol and that you are not able to drink it in pubs so pubs have closed and i can't go into one to get some company which is the only place that was open for me its a place wher e I can go and see people I know, The only action open to me now is to ignore the labour shit show.  Maybe I would not have taken it so personally if I had given up on the getting rid of them but there you go. I see they are becoming unpopular and my reaction now might have the effect of getting people on their side but they have annoyed me I guess' I got caught in a heavy shower earlier and got wet so it was a miserable walk home its just a miserable time right now regarding things I know the virus is bad in some plac

I had a phone call today from the housing association asking what I thought of them I am not too impressed especially when they lie to me, and don't come and fix things, they did ask me though if I felt safe maybe its a common question well it must be as its on their questionaire maybe they were referring to the state of the building perhaps but to be hones I could not say catagorically that I felt completly safe due to eh history I have with the place I suppoe I still have anxiety surround thing whih obviously affects my quality of life here and exaccerbates things which don't really need excarbating these days. I should stay off the facebook too really for a while as its only making things worse in the end I get worked up over stupid things on there, I has not been good day today in relation to the weather hopefully tomorrow is better

I have a very sore hip today I have no idea why it flares up and down its really strange its not as i I am exerting myself much its really frustrating when one day its not there and the next it is. It is very quiet here again today, I am slowly getting used to the new tv it will be handy for the summer in relation to the football where hopefully there will be fans due to the vaccine which has already encountered a hitch and its only the second day of it being out which is a bit  of a drag. I guess the thing is so new that it was going to be a bit hit and miss as these things they say take about 10 years to get right.   I have not had the call to go and get the vaccine yet I doubt I will get it till the middle of next year so its on we go with the same regime  for a while anyway. I have been invited to a virtual meeting tonight on the housing crisis in Wales I am not sure whether to attend though I have not a lot else to do as dopey drakeford has closed the pubs again.  I don't thin

  It is hard to get away from the fact that everyone alive today is part of a historical event a negative event but its historical and will be studied for generations to come and today is a historical day when the vaccine is going to be rolled out and there is a new dawn getting out of this pandemic which everyone never dreamed would happen it was something that happened in other countries really the spread of disease. It has caught the politcians on the hop and on the whole the labour gov in cardiff has been awful in their decision making regardless of the unprecedented situation it has been a travesty on all accounts not least the amount of people who have died This thing a little bit to run again till its finally over but we are on the way which is a credit to be people who have found the way out, the vaccine is clear for take off. There is still no comprimise regarding alchohol, I reckon the chap making these decisions is scared from his time as a social worker, so another day pass

Not a good day today, pain in the hip is back my telly has broken the weekend has been screwed by some moronic politician and its been raining most of the day   The pubs have to shut due to the fact that people spend time in them I am not sure what sort of regime operates like that, this is really strange as the virus is low here and obviously being in the pub has no impact on the spread of the thing or it would go up. The volume works on the tv but there is no picture for some reason it has been threatening to do this for a while now I guess I could have got it fixed but god knows how long I would have to wait and the volume on it is shit anyway so I decided to splash out on a new one.   I had better beware of spending money as the money I get might be cut next year to pay for all this.

  The weather is better today though not a lot else I went shopping this morning and the town w as quiet as it is these days due to some restrictions.  They are talking about having more restrictions in Wales even though the virus is practically non existent in this county, so obviously I and a lot of people won't be very happy if they do but it seems there are lot of idiots out there who are flouting the rules and making it difficult for everyone else in the process I watched the football this evening and it was difficult to get a decent signal really I will have to find another source for sunday.

It has been a rotten day weather wise and it makes it harder to put up with the pandemic restrictions everything is closed and now the weather closes you in the house too now. There is no sport to go and see outside only on the tv with no crowds, sport is not suppose to be played in empty stadiums well not professional sport anyway. They say there is a vaccine on the way and it will he here by april well I hope so.  I will go to the pub later and see someone who I have no seen for a few weeks but so much has happened a lockdown was introduced the anoouncement of the vaccine thing and english lockdown has started too.   When this is all done life will become 'boring' when or if it goes back to the way things were but it maybe not I suppose we shall see.  It would be hard to describe to someone who had not experienced this pandemic, what it is or was like. I saw a programme on tv earlier and it chronicled the start of the pandemic in Britain it feels so long ago now 

  Whilst ou walking today  I thought of the saying focus on the journey and not on the destination I first heard it in dressing room in taekwondo class it is 20 years ago apparently it feels like yesterday though I have no idea where the time has gone but 20 years seems to have flown by which is a bit disconcerting really, another 20 years and I won't be here probably I heard the saying last night on program about disability and can you be happy if you have one, many people would say no hence the 'poor him' crap that disabled people have to put with the pity I guess the loss is evident or perceived to be there something is missing well its only missing if they were there in the first place.

I had a visit from the gas man this morning it was the first time someone has been in this house for about 9 months besides my sister, he was here to check the boiler. Him coming here made it awkward for me to go and get a parcel from the next town though maybe the weather was a biggerr deterent.  I did venture out in the afternoon and got a bit of my coat stuck in the local drug dealer's house and it has made a hole which I am annnoyed about, the material is not very thick though granted. My hip is sore to it seems worse today even though I thought swimming would help I have done some stretches which hopefully might help.  

Well its the going swimming routine again today of the trying to find a decent spot to swim in hopefully it should not be too difficult its not a very nice day to be going out but I suppose at least its not cold.  I am expecting a parcel apparently but it seems like I will not be in unless it comes in the next hour or so. I am getting a visitor tomorrow it will be a the first tie time in a long while except for my sister, they are coming to have a look at the boiler as they do every year I guess its priority due to safety.  

A week has gone by so quickly it will be a week tomorrow this firebreak thing came to an end the shops are now open though due to lockdown next door and the weather I guess there were not that many people around and some showed their contempt for the measures by keeping their doors clesed or it maybe be in sympathy with the measures next door. The wind and rain are around today as it was yesterday as is my sore hip so I will not  venture out too far today I guess. hopefully I will get a chance to get out for a small stroll to try to get rid of the lemon drizle cake I made yesterday. One of the best inventions regarding the internet is online banking I reckon it is so conveniet but it seems the older generation who may a lot more money are a bit reticent to partake in it I hope I never reach that stage of not being able to take up new things however hard it is.   My bank account is over two hundred miles away and so its not that convenient to go and talk to the bank the branches are als

  It is another sore hip day all I can put it down to is the weather as nothing else seems to be the obvious cause of it , it comes and goes for no apparent reason. the weather today is very autumanla the wind and ran crap which causght me a bit unawares this afternoon, and I got my feet wet, this might mean I might get a cold as sure am not going to catch one any othre way due to the  oandemic measures, this pandameic thing still leaves me bemused in relation to how it happened and the lockdown thing that came smashing into my world in th middle of March and the compounding of my isolation its been a year like no other and hopefully things will improve next year.   I usually get a cold at xmas I doubt very mich I will get one this year as I don't get near people often enough these days

I was told an article I had written in the summer would be in the local paper today and it it was and this is a bit of an achievement as I had not written anything in Welsh since I was at school. The article was about Summerhill school which was here in this village from 1940-45 it was based at Bryn Llewelyn down the road.  I guess I will have to find something else to write about now I am not sure what though at the moment.  

  I developed a hip pain a while ago I went to the doctor he sent me for an xray he said I had arthritis but also sent me to an orthopeadic clinc aswell. In the clinic he said I did have arthritis but it wasnt what was troubling me he said I had a problem with the piriformis muscle . Due to this pandemic I have not been able to go and see the physio so he sent me some exercises when I do them they sometimes make me worse this pain comes and goes but never but I am not able to get rid of it completely it does not stop me from doing things really its just annoying I don't think the exercises do anything but I am not able to go and see anyone about it due to this pandemic lark. I probably should have made an appointment to go swimming this week but its a bit of palaver so I have not bothered they say you can do it online but I am fucked if I knwo how to do it I will have to sort myself out I guess and do it eventually There is usually a fair in the village on the 13 of this month but

I see that they have banned smacking kids in Scotland which is a good thing they should ban it everywhere.  The ban is a kind of acknowledgement that it is wrong to hit kids not that its needed we know its wrong, but the ban sort of brings it out in the open and it can be talked about and hopefully people can be educated about more humain ways of dealing with childre.   Beating children damages them physically and mentally it makes them afraid it also brutalises them and can cause life long problems its basically abuse. They say that smacking is not abuse but its the fact that the line has been crossed and undisciplined adults the irony of it, will not stop at just a small smack and it can lead to abuse which the child can do nothing about well if they can't now at least someone else can now which may save a life or not ruin a life. I think it might be happening Wales soon thankfully.  I was beaten by both parents I could not defend myself as I was a child but I was a bit more vuln

Donald Trump is finally gone a horrible man i finally kicked out, I am not American but have had to listen to his crap on the news for the last 4 years which have felt like 40.  He is not going to go as quiet as we would like but he will eventually go. It is a nice day today weather wise and I went to Lidl to do some shopping I did not want anything well I did not think I wanted anything but I managed to get a lot of stuff in the basket it will save me having to go tomorrow I suppose but then I have to find something else to do which as its going to be a nice day weather wise should not be too hard to do.   This is the last weekend of the firebreak thing when the traffic has been quitet and shops not selling food have been shut in Lidl they had turned the 'non' essential stuff round they had not covered them this not essential thing was a load of bollox but I can what they were trying do but they had not thought it through properly obviously. There has been hardly anyone around

 II have been wantng to go walking up a path in the next town but I am not able to find it as I can't read mmaps too well. I went to look for thepath but could not find it the last tiem I went to look for it .  Sotoday I went and had another go to find this path, this time I thought I would ask ssomeone but it being a lockdo wn there was no one around  butttttt today there was someone around luckily who gave me the directios I was no sure I could follow them vut off I went and I managed to follow them and found the route

  Its hard not to wonder what kind of place this society will be to live in after all this is over whenever that is.  On Monday restictions in Wales are over and I can go back to the pub and back swimming, while England has a month of these restictions I don't envy the people two weeks has been bad enough due to the mental health strain of the isolation I am not sure I could manage 4 weeeks There some benefits, the peace and quiet for one I guess and I am saving money  but it is the peace and quiet that is the best thing I suppose the absence of traffic noise I am not too sure if I will be able to deal with the noise coming back I seem to adjust ok last time.  After the last lockdown I thought I would never experience a traffic free environment again but it has happened I have been walking on the main road pretty often in the last couple of weeks and its been great having the road to myself and I still have 4 days maybe more as the English are in lockdown from tonight I feel sorry

It is the American president election today its hard to believe four years has gone already I predicted Trump would have been shot before the end of his year in office but that did not happen, I don't think he will get another 4 years due to the way he has handled the pandemic for one thing and his treatment of refugees. I heard yesterday the bus company who serves this place is stopping but there is another one taking over which is ok I guess and that the service will change.  The service that is running now has been a bit awkward during the pandemic at times I guess it is related to everyone being a bit on edge. Well the oddness of this year goes on as Wales comes out of its little firebreak England will go into it which is a difficult one as obviously people from England will want to come to Wales to escape the restricions it is a bit a shambles really and smacks of poor communication and working together its all a bit childish on everyones part one blaming the other.

 It seems that the independence of Wales is becoming more prominent, that's what it looks like as the movement Yes Cymru has increased its membership some of the increase in the last few days is due to the controversy regarding the furlough scheme but it seems that the north of England was treated the same. I see this furlough scheme thing as just another injustice of being ruled by another country and that is the crux of my belief in Welsh independence, I think Wales should rule itself so it could regarded as a sovreign state and things could be done to improve it then. I guess I want to live in country that is regarded as a free country not a vessel state of England so its a selfish thing really many might think that Britain is that state for me, its only Britain to England when it suits. The is a border, do people who are a few feet from each other feel different.  Do people who cross the border to live start to see independence as a thing for Wales? I can remember being aware o

  It is quiet on the road outside again today but for some reason I still have anxiety regarding the noise coming from the road the vibratons from cars which will be back again next week or maybe not as there will be a lockdown thingy in England soon but the noise will be back one day. I will have to move away from this house if I can't get used to the noise again.  The only thing making a noise today is the wind and rain which is happening its quite warm though which is the case usually mild temps give rise to a lot of wind and rain. I am sure I came across lockdown flouters yesterday they looked sheepish but I guess many inhabitants look sheepish round here.  They were also dressed to go hicking which most round here don't they just go for a walk.  I guess if you are going to break the rules don't make it so obvious.   This is tough time for all but it there is a lockdown thingy n england there will be more people wanting to come to Wales to get away from their lockdown i

Its another day of this firebreak thing I was really annoyed about it last weekend a step back I thought to the dark days of March but its not been that bad really I have managed better than I thought I would and my pain has gone from my stomach. I got a lift this morning I probably should not have taken it really as you don't know who has the virus or not but I guess the level seems quite low round here probably due ot the rural setting no crowds. There was no bread in tesco today well not the one I usually get anyway so I went to a bakery and got the unsliced variety which is ok.  I was not sure if I went shopping as I had to get out the house or I did need some things I did get few things I guess. When I came back from shopping I went for a walk again along the normally quite busy road I am taking advantage of the fact that its quiet.  I walked back along the old railway. I have had this sore on the back of my ankle for a few days and it does not seem to want to get better very

It has been a diabolical day today as regards the weather wind an rain nearly all day the forecast was right for a change I was not even able to go out for walk. I had some health course today online it was the first one I had ever done using those video things it was ok though its not possible to talk to other people like you are able to do in the others.  I did contribute a bit to it but the guy went on a bit on it. I thought the time would drag but it was not that bad and being as I had nowhere else to go in relation to the weather and the covid restrictions it was good to hae have something to do . The distraction thing might be useful its something I hav used before but maybe I need to use it more these days as it might be more effective than the rest of the things  i have tried. It is still very quiet round here no traffic but the wind has been making a racket today i hope this fire thing helps though it might be undermined if the travel restrictions are lifted too soon. I have n

I don't like bad customer service, the ones custermer service people who call you 'mate' really gets on my nerves, and I have gotten uptight about it.  I had that expereince today in Tesco again where there are a lot like that the over familiar approach.  I am not there mate in fact I have not met a lot of them before only maybe at the till. oToday it was a young man who did the ok mate thing and as I was walking out I thought to myself that I was maybe being a bit silly get uptight about things like over familliarity and that these people did not or had not learnt the skills of customer service yet and in time would probably be very good at customer relations at least tesco is giving them the chance but maybe they should give money off for people who have to put up with them in the mean time.  But seriously I guess I have been foolish it not their fault they have not grasped the decorum of customer service yet but maybe the fault lies with tesco for letting them loose on t

  This is the first day of the very controversial policy by the labour administration in Cardiff, its called a firebreak it essentially has closed things down and given people rules or reiterated rules that will last a couple of weeks in an effort to halt the virus. The policy to me seems a bit over the top as the virus is low here and is as far as I can see low in Wales in general to get it down more all they needed to do was to tweek a few things improve on their communication a little bit but this is more like trying to crack a nut with a hammer and smack of a bit of power going to their heads and its not what devolution was designed for its for the people of Wales not the labour shit show. It is not a great day to start off this rubbish either if there is a good day to start it its very wet and gloomy a typical october day.  I popped up to the local to go to the chemist but it was closed for some reason and I did pop into the supermarket it was very quiet in the town.  Apparently t

I have heard it a few times this covid restrictions situation that it must be hard to go through it if you live on your own I assume they mean it must me harder than if you live with someone well I know I am stating the obvious in that if you are going through it on with others, a child or partner it depends on the sitution. If you have a child you have the worry that they might catch it at home or from fiends and this might be exacerbated if they have a health issue. Children need to be entertained fed clothed which can be a burden a financial one, they will have questions that you can't answer such as why can't I see my friends outside school but I can in it which are impossible to answer and are bonkers and these issues are caused by people in charge of this situation but basically are part of the problem. If you live someone and the relationship is a good one then thats fine you can help each other through and of course is much better than living on your own and I guess som

 It has been a tough day a long boring day, sumdays are usually difficult but have become harder in the pandemic.  There is an ere silence around the place when there is not traffic and that eere silence seems like it is going to be compounded soon which is a pain in the ass. There is still no light at the end of the tunnel regarding this situation it could go on for another year maybe but do I want my old life back no I guess I don;t that is the irony of it all I suppose.

  Another dull day and there is another increase in restictions on the way apparently this had bettter be good as telling people to do all the time is going to wear thin and in reality the approach of the tories is more sensible in the fact that they are binging in restictions and asking people to comply which as more chance of working and making it possible to introduce more restrictions. I had a lift this morning to tesco and it was a nice morning it has been an ok day weather wise

  I spent a bit of time today trying to get the broken tablet to work it seems though they will send me a new one which is good being as I have only had it a couple of weeks.m  They did not say anything about wanting the old one back, maybe the computer shop can fix for a small fee I shall see, if they don't want it back. I did the usual hour in the foodbank today someone came there and requested I did something but I was already doing something and she did not seem to be doing anything so I declined and let her get on with it. Before the end of the session a bird came in and we spent a bit of time trying to get it out again it eventually left, when birds come into buildings it can sometimes be a sign if a a robin comes into your house it can be a sign of someone going to die apparently I guess it depends if you believe these things

  The traffic seems to have eased off a lot over the last couple of weeks due to the end of the tourist season I guess and the fact that some areas have local restictions which have started to creep into Gwynedd where I live  Bangor is now under local restrictions due to the students not behaving and getting too exited about being away from home and that they don't get it they are out of sight of their elderly relatives too I guess so they conscience is not pricked.  I am sure students are not the only culprits though everyone is getting really fucked off with this whole thing. I was chatting to a cousin of mine today who was not happy with having to make her hands sore as she works in a kitchen in a school she was hoping that the they might take two weeks off as the kids will get tired and catch something and then bring it to school all it needs is one and can go through the community I guess I has been a long boring day today really as its been wet and I am not able to go out for

  I had a swim booked for 1.15 pm today yes you have to book them now in this pandemic which seems to be getting out of hand again here.  The bus was an hour early so I went to look for some shoes for the rainy weather which it was today.  I got the the pool about 5 minutes early and there were people standing outside waiting to get in in theri masks.  When we were let in I had to go the reception to get card clicked or whatever they call it and then I had to got the disabled changing room which is actaully a positive regarding being disabled as everyone else has to get undressesd by the pool. I did not know what the regime was in the pool as it all changed but was told that there would only be about 3 there which there wasn't there were a few there as I was not sure what was going on I took the option offered to me by a lady the other day and asked for a lane to my myself and it was sorted which was good I had a nice swim When I got out I was not sure which way to go as arrows poi

 I got up to a pretty wet start today but it has improved as the day has gone on its it dry now and its not that cold really.  My hip is a bit sore today I am not sure if its the effect of the walk that I did yesterday I don't really know or the fact that the tablets have run out I may order some more I am not too sure. I had a go with the looper pedal today and it was not that easy I guess as its been while since I have used it I will need to practise a bit more it will take a while to learn how to use it again I suppose the music seems to have petered off in the last few weeks compared to how much I was doing it but maybe its understandable.

  I got up a bit earlier today than I usually do on a Sunday due to not having been to the pub last night though they shut so early due to these restrictions I doubt it would have made much difference if I had gone to the pub .  I have a bit of a sore stomach due to the stress of this lockdown and eating crap I guess  its very difficult to reduce the stress managing things that cause trouble due to the pandemic and the fact that I spend so much time on my own. I decided to make a cake this morning which will not help my stomach really or get rid of the lockdown belly I made lemon drizzle cake I have not made a cake for many years I have not done a lot of things for many years and done them during this pandemic like swim in the local river a few times I can go to the swimming pool now its a bit of ordeal these days but I can go, I have booked a session for tuesday afternoon.  This period I have also started to try and write in Welsh for the first time since I was in school and I was not

Had a shit day today really again in this miserable pandemic lark which everyone is getting fed up with.  I decided to go and get my broken laptop which I am not going to pay to get fixed as I have ordered another one. In fact I did not pick It up in the end I left it there as I wsa only going to throw it away anyway and maybe they might be able to fix it and sell it as reonditioed perhaps' On the bus I got a bit of crap from the driver today which was a shame.  This was after gettting some shit from someone who had thrown next doors bin into the garden here It was a bit sad now that the best goal I have ever seen in welsh premier lieagu will not count as the lights fused and the game has to be replayed its a strange world right now I seem to be losing things these days and finding them is a lot harder for some reason now the boading balls gone missing its really frustrating these days   

  Housing is real problem these days round here, the other day a few people walked from Nefyn to Caernarfon to protest about the fact that too many houses are being tuned into holiday homes thus depriving locals of a home perhaps adn also making the price of houses go up ad out fof the reach of the local community meaning they have to leav to b able to buy a home. Inn this street whee I live there a few housing scenarios going on, I live in a housing association house, there are private homes here where people live in them all  the time and there houses which are second hmes and the re houses which are air bnb and there are houses which are owned by peopl who are in homes aer are never likey to leave at home adn have no use for that  house adn have no faily to passit on to. It is reported in the papaer today that people will lose their homes becasue of the end of the mortgage holiday.  Many people buy houses as investment adn again depriving people of a home.  I have a friend who has a

  And its on we go with the pandemic some ne rules have come in again today I am not sure what some have gone into some local lockdown I am not surewho.  I doubt this place will see a lockdown again but I guess with these stupid politicians you never know. I had some bad news today regarding a laptop it is broken and will  need a new mother board well I am not buying one of them this the second laptop to gon a couple of weeks the first one I got fed up with as it ws so slow so I am not not sure whether to buy a new one or not.  I am not sure this tablet will do the job really and I have the money. I was encouraed today to apply for the council maybe I could do something for a while while I am there I shall see it might be interesting I guess the kids seem to have been more spread out today on the bus home maybe someone has had a word to them  I am not too sure what I will do tomorrow I am a bit tired these days maybe its boredom I am not too sure.  Regarding the council  I had better f

After a bit of messing about i managed to get this cheap bluetooth keyboard working though its a bit slow and they keypad is stiff but maybe it will losen up with time perhaps. I CAN   

It has been a long and dreary day the new season is making it colder now and bit more uncomfortable at home and outside.  I guess it had to come eventually but I am not a fan of the cold which I have to put up with now for 6 months.  I jsut hope my fears are not realised and it becomes a nightmare Last winter seemed to be hard going with the pain in the hip the cabin fever and the hastle with noisy man hole cover but it just seems that it will be a lot tougher this year with the imposed isolation of the pandemic no distraction such as the music nights I am not sure if I can go swimming yet.  There will be no card playing not much social interaction at all really.  Even in the local shop the interaction is limited due to mask wearing and and the plastic screen that is there. I have thought about getting a plastic sheild as opposed to a mask as it might help with the steaming up of glasses but it might also be difficult for me to see through it as well so I guess I will stick with the ma

I decided to go and do some shopping today it was the first day where i would have to wear a mask in the ship.  I have had broken laptop for months so I took that down they claimed it won't start as it needs to close down I doubt this is the problem as it has closed down and nothing.  I took it down and had planned to leave it there but it was not the case as I had to take it home to so called close down and therefore I had to drag it round the shops with me which was a pain. I got the next bus back and attempted to have a chat through the mask but it was no good.  I had bought some lunch and had to wait till I got home to eat it, this I did in the garden.  After I had some lunch I looked for the phone it was nowhere to be seen I rang it no sound so it meant I had lost it on the bus.  I shot out of the house to catch the bus going back down.  I was not sure if the bus had been or was coming anyway it turned up.  I got on the bus took look for it it was nowhere to be seen  I thought

  The traffic round here has become awful its a bloody nuisance so much of it about rhese days that you crave for the lockdown again and the crap that that might bring too. I went for wonder round the grave yard this morning hoping to find a certain grave but I did not manage it I came across some names of places in the village which I did not know existed I guess its way of finding out what the place names, house names are called I guess.   The inscriptions on the stones are hard to read now some have been there for nearly 200 hundred years.  Some are in Welsh and some are in English which is interesting obviously bilingualism is long established here.  Some of the grave are disrepair and you wonder what will happen to them.  I guess graveyard are a record of social history Th weather is not so great today its ok but its has been a bit damp hopefully it will hold until thursday as i am off for a walk well an amble down hill \I guess it is Bleanau to Maentwrog.  I will help in the redu

  I went for a walk round the village graveyard last night to look at the different inscriptions on the graves and was surprised to see that the graves included the name of the children as well as the parents these graves were from the 19th century I guess the explanation is the fact that people died younger in those days. Today I go to the foodbank which is a bit quieter these days I am not sure if that is due to the fact that the universal credit is a bit more at the moment who knows or maybe the fact that the scam which was going on has stopped. I went to the foodbank today and due to the stupid labour crap in cardiff I have to wear a mask indoors and it was a pain in the ass as I wear glasses I got really steamed up while getting the boxes ready it was very uncomfortable I could not see what I was doing. I usually get a bus back around 3 pm but I got fucked about by arriva bus wales it did not turn up well not for half an hour and I am not too sure I would have got the the thing as

  It seems to have gone from one extreme to the other with the level of visitors for months there were only some flouters now they are like all over the place and don't seem to feel like its time they fucked off. It has been a very frustrating day being not able to find that little bastard I can't recall where I put it down last night it can't be far and I am sure it will turn up one day but in the mean time I am one dow and will have to ring the hospital and then wait for days for a  replacement if they actually do agree to send me one.. It was going so well well it was a decent weekend until this unfortionate episode of the lost thingmy..  The weather has been fine and the football had a godo result, it is depressing that the infections are going up and its only september an they haven't gone back to school college etc yet and the bad season for infection is a long way off. The cars are still getting on my nerves too I am not sure whether to buy a thicker carpet or no

I had a go at bread making again and it was not that good again it still didn't rise like I would like to  I am not sure how to get to rise maybe I will try another recipie. I was peroccupied with my past again while making the bread and about how bad my childhood was and how bad my time was at school due to the abuse adn the fact that I came back after trying for so long to get away from the place. One of the local bus services that stopped during the lockdown is back and running which is good as i can use another bus service as opposed to arriva.  I went to sort out the picture frame today but it will taek a couple of weeks   

I seem to get lot wrong these days my over reaction on Sunday and now I seem to have to it wrong regarding the delivery of an order.  The thing from facebook came today I thought I had been ripped off but it seems not but I did email them and did not get a reply twice I don't really know what went wrong. The experience or what I though was the experience had got me nervous about shopping online but anyway I have it now which is good I feel bad for complaining I will see if I can apologise no fool like an old fool. I I seem to be spending a lot of time insulting people on line these days on facebook I seem to have or feel that I have control I guess. This situation of the isolation I feel is not good and having to be stuck in the house today due to shit weather is not good the weather is as bad as me all over the place it seems.  I got that wrong too I thoguht it was going to be only a bit of rain I must have read the forecast wrong.  I spent the morning messing about with some tech

It seems to be an even tougher year in you live in Wales with floods and the covid 19 shit its heartbreaking really, the rain seems to causing a lot more damage recently but there is nothing anyone can do I guess as the weather will do what it does. Not sure what is going on on blogger regarding the size of the text.  I went shopping today as usual and the shop assistant was a bit awkward today I thought I was saving time but she didn't  I guess  its a hard time for all  

Today has been a bit of a washout and very windy I think I remember this weather spoiling a walk I was suppose to be going on a few years ago that walk seems to have stopped now which is sad as it was the highlight of the summer really.  I got to see all kinds of places due to the walk but I think the organiser is getting on a bit so I guess he is not arranging them so much also there is the covid bollox going on. I could do with going to walk a bit more due to the weight I have put on recently. I am sure well I hope to get some walks in before the weather scuppers it for a while  

I think I know now why I have put on weight in the last few months besides eating junk due to boredom, I think its because the experience of shopping has changed I am given more time now to look and see what's there where before I had to get what I wanted and leave.   I am given more time due to the covid thing the way that shopping has changed the fact that there is not so many people or staff in the shop I am basically able to see the junk stuff a lot easier and therefore buy it. I did try today to reduce the suggery stuff to be honest it does make me feel a bit ill, so I can lose some of this excess weight.  I have no idea how much I have put on as I don't have scales but when I walk I am a bit more breathy than usual. The tourists and their lack of social distance practise are getting on my nerves now they don't even try well not all but most of them its about time they went home now enough is enough.  

  I decided to go and deliver something to the local general hospital as opposed to send it there.  I had the time to take it there and hopefully it will get back quicker when I go there it was eerily quiet not how I remember pre the covid thingy nowhere as many people there. The bus journey to the hospital was a lot more uncomfortalble thab usual due to the wretched mask and the fact the bus was not empty and the windows were closed which was the same for the way back though not so busy. Bangor where I went was not normal either it was a lot quieter than it usually is the buses are also no frequeent i guess this is the covid world now. the world of uncertainty I just hope I have not caught anything while running the gauntlet on the bus. I have just written and email to the local MP regarding two empty houses across the road from me.  There is tension right now regarding second homes and resentment they breed.  I was looking at house yesterday in the village I hope its not going to be

  I had a swim in a local river today while there is dawned on me I had not done that since I was a child I have swam in lakes but not rivers it was very refreshing and nice after a crowd out walking moved on I was a bit apprehensive about going there but I saw my sister and her partner and it seemed to spur me sort of thing not sure why maybe because I was not that alone there I guess It has been a fine day weather wise which I guess is obvious or I would not have gone into the river but I am sure its possible to swimming even in the rain.  I am wondering now if that part of the river has a name and if anyone knows it I doubt these names are written down anywhere. While there I was also thinking of the generations of local villagers who had been swimming there over the centuries over time, and the ones who will swim there in the future.

I ordered some scales a few weeks ago they finally came and they are not right.  I contacted the seller they say I can give them a review and they will refund me I assume this is due to the hastle of sending things back  I guess though they want me to lie about the product which I am not too happy about.  They have not said that they want to me give false info but I am assuming the refund comes with that guarantee and if I tell the truth they might withhold the money I can if I want to just send it back but this is a load of haslte really but it seems it might better in the long run as this feedback thing is a load of hastle right now. There is no sign of the forecasted rain  its a nice sunny morning actually thought its pretty hot,  I am glad the pub is open and that there is somewhere to go now I guess I don't feel quite so on my own anymore in this lockdown.

  I did a walk today that I did last with someone else a few weeks ago I got lost in the beginning a bit and it was very wet under foot but its a nice day so I guess getting my feet wet is not that such a big deal. While I was wondering about my childhood and mainly about my time in the local school regarding the abuse I got from a lot children while there and if that kind of thing went on today would I have had to suffer the same kind of thing today or not I am not too sure who to ask regarding the issue really but I am sure I will find someone . I ordered a talking scales this one I got does not talk though I will have to check the order again I guess.  i am not a fan of sending things back though its alot of hastle.  I went to the pub last night and i wondering whether to go again I don't really want to catch the virus as from facebook i can see the thing is in the area,  I guess if I keep to the social distance which was not being adhere to in Porthmadag I should be ok.

I ordered a talking scales the other day I have no idea where its gone no sign of it being delivered according to alexa its coming in september if I had known it was going to take so long I would not have bothered really. I found out this afternoon that the village pub is going to open this week maybe which means I can go back to socialising with the village again I don't think there will be any music allowed though due to covid being able to spread by singing apparently. I wonder if anyone will come across this thing in the future and read a bit of it to get some impression of how it was in the pandmic or maybe the pandemic will wipe us all out who knows it does not seem likely that will happen but then again no one saw the  pandeimic coming I guess you just never know what is round the corner I did the foodbank thing again today and the bus was late and so I was not there that long not that I am there that long anyway to be honest it was quiet today really seems to be getting bac

No stupid mishaps as such today like leaving the cooker on all night or putting fairly liquid in the washing machine, might be due to the fact that I slept a bit more last night. Very sad to hear today about the death of a cousine who had not been well for a while she went quite quickly in the end I guess . I decided to go and do some shopping in the afternoon though I was a bit apprehensive due to all the visitors and them bringing the virus here which would be bad news.  I had to serve myself again at wilkos I neeed some weed killer so I can put some gravel down maybe. The FA cup did not go too well today for Chelsea due to bad refereeing mainly and bad injuries I geuss.

We were given the impression it was going to be a nice day today it was ok but nothing special here anyway and its not going to improve over the weekend the bloody rain is back again which is a pain in the backside. I am a bit worn out after the walk yesterday it was nice walk but a bit tiring, I have been clearing the front the house and thinking of putting some gravel there to keep the weeds down and maybe it will help with the poxy traffic which  has been relentless all day today people rushing to climb a mountain or go to a beach  the place is over run by tourists which is not good for the effort of trying to keep the virus as bay the buggers will come here and leave it here most likely 

There was no rain today for a change which was nice it has not been sunny just dry which is always the main thing round here.   Tbese days it seems the day it self seems to go quite quickly but the evenings are a real drag but better when the weather is bad. There is hardly anyone around as usual except traffic though that seems to finish around tea time too maybe as there is nothing open in the evening these days so no reason to go out except for drive I guess the pubs are open but they are not the same as they usually are. I ordered a parcel from amazon the other day apparently it is suppose to arrive by the 9th of septemeber not sure how its getting here are they walking with it? The days seem to be bit like going through the motions these days go to bed get up trudge through the day and then back bed and repeat. I feel like a hampster on a wheel

It seems coronation street has got in on the act regarding the pandemic with social distancing going on there now it makes a nice change from having to watch people behaving normally which we can't do right now. It started off a rough day weather wise but it got a lot better as time went on the sun came out this afternoon for  while which was a nice change. I might actually be getting near to going for a drink not in the local but in another pub which has opned a few miles away and that's the problem its a few miles away and the buses finish earlyk these days so I will have to get lift somehow or walk which is a bit extreme the taxi is very expensive unless you share I guess we shall have to see what happens at least there is light at the end of this long tunnel. The nights are drawing in as they do this time of year being that the longest day has gone a few weeks ago.  I was thinking of investing in another mask but spending too much is a bit silly as after this pandemic which

Well its another poxy soggy day we are paying big time for the beautiful spring we had, apparently its going to be better tomorrow. I went shopping earlier to a town about 10 miles away usually the weather is better there than here but on this occasion it wasn't it was just as shit there as here worse perhaps.  I got some shopping done and headed for the bus, now the timetables have changed a lot and I don't usually catch this bus but assumed it would be simillar to others in relation to returning

The weather is nice today so I felt obliged to go out for walk so off I went to the usual route I guess of along the river as I have said before the locals seem to be using the route a lot more in this strange time we are in.  They talk of a second lockdown I am still in the first one nothing has returned for me yet, well maybe in strange form to the usual. I managed to get a parcel back to this company this mornng they claimed it was easy it was not easy at all it took two days of being in the house to do it its real pain in the ass,  Talking of pain in the ass I also had a physio appointment over the phone this morning in another strange development you wonder if anything is back to the way it was I guess it won't be until the wretched social distancing has been got rid of  After a bit of messing around i finally got the exercises that I need to do to help with the pain.  I spent some money this morning in the shop as oppossed to using the card some money that appeared in my pock

Today is a bad day weather wise its coming down in buckets saw that it might improve later its sad for the pubs that can only open outdoors but its going to be difficult to get for me too as its so nasty but I will try in a bit and see what happens.  this weather is not good for the damp in this building its wet enough as it is.

I am still stuck in March nothing has changed today what was taken away then has not been restored at all not one bit and is really frustrating. As well as the frustration it was another negative experience of going to the local shop the customer service is hit and miss.  The lack of changes and the unwelcome changes during this pandemic will probably cause more damage than the virus could ever do, this pandemic has be appaulingly managed by the politicians in this country and there will be repurcussions but we have to get through a second wave with these shithouse administrations first which is not a very position to be in. I decided to walk to the next town I was surprised to see how many people were walking on the side of the road it was like the old days when people used to walk up there while looking for lifts I guess maybe more are walking as no picks them up maybe they usually walk but obviously can't get picked up now due to the virus or maybe they don't want to go on t

And here we are again still in this pandemic lark where they are stepping up the wearing the face coverings they have to be a certain kind. It seems to be getting a bit busier on the buses now and the old crowd seems to be appearing back on them I guess they have got bored of the being at home which is natural, it was also quite a bit busier going back at least it was dry today well until now anyway.. I bought some new walking shoes today and they will do to just go out generally too I think the only thing I thought of afterwards is that they might neeed cleaning due to being suede kind of material oh well they are more comfortable now than they were in the shop which is odd. The level of traffic seems to have gone up a fair bit in the last few days it was reallyk bad today but I guess if the tourists are not going abroad they have to come here or scotland or cornwall.

Its another rotten day weather wise today but its hard to complain after the spring we had I guess.  It is also been very misty though they have said that the weather is going to be nice. I went to my usual stint at the foodbank today and was surprised to see someone I know there it makes me think that many are on the breadline in this community which is very sad. I have had an itch for a few days I am not too sure if its the environment or its something wrong with me I will have to go to the doctor if it does not get any better

Its dry today at least though there seems to be a lot of wind around for a July for some reason oh well I guess there is no point in worrying about it as it will do what it does. I went to wilkos yesterday and they had taken self service a bit far I had to use the scanner myself and I was suppose to use the screen myself I was basically expected to do the job of the customer assistant which is not on really, Due to it being dry I will atleast be able to go for a walk I suppose sunday's are hard going the best of times but even harder in this pandemic situation. I listened to an interesting video by the economist today about the negatives of homeownership and their nimby attitude they are concerned about anything in relation to new builds that will affect the value of their homes a really selfish attitude if ever there was one it seems the homeowning thing has back fired big time for the west, I think renting is better you have more freedom to move around and you are not at the merc

I am not too sure where the summer has gone but its not very warm.  Its the first of July today I have a dentist appointment this month but I don't know if they are taking patients yet due to this virus I haven't heard anything I guess I will  have to ring the place this week to see if they are taking people again I have been lucky in comparison to some who have had to do some diy on their teeth appaarently which is bad news I think there are emergency treatment but maybe you have to wait and when you're in pain the last thing you want to do is wait.  I hope I haven't spoken too soon and this lockdown situation sees me through to an appointment with no pain hardly.  My teeth are not in good condiiton though the years and lack of disciplined cleaning have made sure bits have fallen off now and again and I have had to have filling after filling and the rough edges are quite uncomfortable to touch sometimes. I have not been out today really as its a bit damp but I guess I

It seems summer has disappeared for now anyway it is very wet and cold not like you would expect June to be at all but I guess there is not a lot I can do about it. My curtains arrived today the chap who delivered them was not doing much social distancing at all but oh well I guess people think this pandemic is over well its not over yet.  The curtains are not exactly what I wanted but they will have to do I guess.  I have hung them up I used a chair to stand on to do it which has become a bit rickety lately I thought they would have lasted longer than they have done but nothing lasts forever I guess not even this pandemic. I took the bus later on and the mask was in action again and my glasses get streamed up. which is a nuisacne but there is not a lot I can do about that either. I contacted summerhill school on Norfolk which was based here during the war about them putting a  plaque up in the building where it was based to commenmorate the occasion I guess I had not thought of the co

So far the day has been wretched to say the least the laptop won't work properly its been playing up since last night for some reason I have felt like standing on it as its so frustraing I do have another old one so I guess it will have to do for now. I went shopping this afternoon and thought I had lost something on the on the bus but I had lost dropped it here it was a relief  but its just another episode in a bad day. The weather is also rubbish today but I guess its difficult to complain as we have had a really nice time in relation to a lot of sun I am sure the weather  will go back to being nice at some point soon as its still on June. Also I had to wear a mask on the bus again which is uncomfortable but I suppose its how it will be now for length of time.

This is pic of the hydro electric dam a pump storage hydro dam which briwas built in the early 1960 the first one in Britain apparently this is an iconic image round here in the winter photos are taken of it covered in snow and like today they are taken of it in the bright sunshine.  This can supply electric for a few hours for the whole of north wales apparently. It is very warm today but there is a nice breeze around it is going to change they say even though I hope not I will have to see what happens anyway. It is not possible to see the dam today as its a bit soggy today but I guess we can't complain as we have had some decent weather this year

I went for a take away today and had something different to the usual sausage and chips I had a small fish instead I as not sure whether to go the sandwich shop or the fish and chip shop the sandwich shop required cash which is a bit odd in this environment most people use cards tthese days as they are more hygenic also I did not fancy the same thing as I have everytime I do this as I find the menu there inaccessible which is frustrating but the main reason |I went to the chippy was the card thing I could not be bothered to take money out.  The menu in the chippy\ I saw today is also accessible but not as accessible as it would be if it was up on their facebook page where I can access it more easily than at present.  The fish was very nice and a change from the usual sausage. I have to wear a face covering now which is stuffy on the bus but it seems like I will have to get use to it, there were not that many shops open today I guess the people are not there to go into them in the first

Monday is here again and the bit of work I do at the foodbank which seems to be easing off a bit now.  The place is packed full of stuff and I hope it does not go waste.  The bank used to be or maybe still is run by the church but the council now supplies it with food apparently I guess it would not be possible for the church to run it now as they are closed at the moment. The shops are open today though but in the next town it did not seem like to me when I went up there on the bus which I have to wear a mask on now and its a bit awkward as my glasses get steamed up its a bit uncomfortable its not very sensible when the thing is nearly empty either but I guess those are the rules that I have to abide by to get on the bus now. My sunburn is a bit better today I did not realise I was getting burnt until I got home I guess the sun is a bit sly like that.  Its not very summery today but its dry its every dull and overcast. I did not have any sound on the browser and I had muted it I guess

I see that some local businesses are opening their doors but they only have locals around to buy stuff I feel that I should support local but I guess |I feel that they should support the disability commuity too in return namely the visual impaired community I guess, I went to local sandwich shop  today and got a sandwich but their menu is not accessible  to me as I am visually impaired so I guess why should I support that shop its an awkward one. My internet was knocked out by the storm last night and so was the electricity  the internet has come back now which is good as I am not going to go anywhere  today as its soggy.   I had to go to the next town to get some things today as the local shop has shut due to the virus thing I don't know how serious it is maybe they want a holiday as they have been busy or something. I got on the bus the other day and the driver told me that the face covering I had was not the right kind of covering it had to be a mask I did not say anything even