David's blog

 I I went for a walk yesterday with a few people around a village not too far from here. When I first heard about it, I had a feeling I’d been on this walk before—well, at least started it—about three years ago, just after I’d been in the hospital for treatment that left me temporarily incontinent. At the time, I hoped it really was temporary, but no one at the hospital bothered to reassure me. It turned out it was, but back then I was still dealing with anxiety over the incontinence. The whole thing had been a horrendous experience, and the hospital staff hadn’t prepared me for it at all. The words “temporarily faecally incontinent” didn’t even begin to cover what I went through, and it messed with my head.   Yesterday, as I started the walk, the route began to feel familiar, and I reached the point where I’d panicked and turned back before. I told one of the guides about it, felt a bit of panic again, but managed to keep going and finish the walk. I’m so glad I did beca...

I played a gig at a venue on Thursday with a few friends, but we were stuck in a corner and had to move furniture ourselves. The person who booked us wasn’t even there, which wasn’t a great start—especially since the place clearly had a lot of money put into it. We played, but hardly anyone paid attention, and we didn’t get so much as a thank-you drink for playing for free—or even a simple thanks—which doesn’t exactly inspire us to speak well of the place.   Lately, I’ve been feeling tired of playing the same old songs, and when no one’s enjoying it, it feels even worse. Maybe that shows in my performance, I’m not sure. I don’t know how to get the group to try different material, but after years of the same routine, it’s starting to feel stale. I wish I could find a new group to play with and mix things up, but there aren’t many music setups around here. Moving is an option, but it’s a big step.   The most disappointing thing about last week’s gig was the lack of gra...