anxiety

My appointment for an EUA was cancelled again, it is now in a couple of weeks, if its not cancelled again.  I get worked up about the whole thing only to have to unwind again.  I don't only have to have the procedure I alos have to isolate for three days before hand, I have not been doing which in hindsight is a good thing I guess.

I will not isolate this time either as I could be wasting my time again. I am not too sure why I have to have this test and why they can't just give me a test on the day, maybe its because I am going on the ward, but if they are only going to cancel again then there is no point.

The interface on this blog thing is shit it hard to get writing down on it, but I don't know of any other free blogging thing on the internet.

I did an anxiety management thing today a lot of the stuff I had heard before many times but due to the situation I am it its probably not a bad idea to listen to some of the stuff and I don't have to leave home as its on teams which was a pain to get into today for some reason zoom is a lot easier

The bus services areound here shockingly bad, the bus went early again today only a minute but early as usual an early bus is useless.  The driver do what they want and considering its only a two hour service sometimes its not very good at all.

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